Today is my eldest son’s eleventh birthday. He is smart, handsome, funny and I am very proud of him. He is also only about 4 inches shy of being my height.
So, on this important occasion, I decided to look back and consider what things have changed in my life from when he was brand new until today. I’m not really talking about the obvious stuff: I am older…I am heavier…I have two children…I have a giant Newfoundland…my cholesterol is higher…my knees are lower…
Instead, I wanted to see how I was different from my younger self in less obvious ways.
So here it goes:
I am actually taller, by 1/4 inch, thanks to my chiropractor. Not quite 5 feet yet, but closer.
I eat green beans. Not the disgusting mushy ones from a can, but ones lightly sautéed in EVVO and balsamic vinegar. I also eat asparagus.
I don’t smoke. It’s been nearly four years.
I don’t drink Diet Coke, which was once practically synonymous with my name. It’s been six weeks.
I’m not as obsessed with a clean house. I used to not be able to relax when the house was a mess. Now I can–I don’t always like it, but I have come to realize that I don’t want to spend my free time after work cleaning up after 2 boys and a slobbery Newfie.
I knit passably well.
I don’t remember what it is like to be bored.
I am now a Nationally Board Certified teacher.
I drink beer–I hadn’t done that since college. Mostly Coors Light because it tastes the best of the low-calorie beers, though I prefer a Session or Kokanee or Stella D’Artois. Or my neighbor’s home-brewed Ginger Beer. I used to drink wine–mostly Sauvignon Blanc–but after babies I now get a headache while I drink the first glass. Boo.
I garden, providing all sorts of yummy goodness for our table. In addition, I am actively involved in the Columbia Falls Community Garden. I learned how to can food.
I don’t know what it is like to not wake up to the slightest sound.
I cook…and I even regularly use more than 4-5 ingredients. I can even improvise, although I still like the safety of a recipe.
Added 2/14/13: I care more about avoiding things such as GMOs, pesticides, commercial fertilizers, etc.
Just a few things…I’m sure there are more. Without question, I am different because I am a mom to two completely awesome kids whom I adore and enjoy. I am less selfish, more contemplative, more realistic, and a whole lot sillier. And I am very, very happy. I was happy 11 years ago…but I also had anxiety about too many things. While I still worry, I am better recognizing what I can control and what I cannot, which has permitted me to release senseless feelings of disquiet.
Vita bonum est.